Sorry if I'm speaking in English but i don't feel like talking in Italian. I feel so lonely tonight. I'm beyond alone right now. All i can think of is her. Her and how much do i love her. Even though she's my best friend and she's already "in love" with somebody. I can't go on like this, I'd really like to be with her, like we usually do. But if I do that, after, I'll be sicker then now. Sad...

24/06/2018 alle 22:36 24/06/2018 alle 22:36
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I agree. I think I've made some mistakes writing down this secret, but still, I don't really care that much. At the very moment I can only think and talk in English. I don't even know why. I think music and TV shows are making me do this... I can't really tell

This is so sad,I understand you,I'm not very good in english,but I try hahahha,sorry,you are okey?you want to talk of that thing?

I'm not very good at English* Are you okay?* Do you want to...?*

I'm not that ok at the moment, but thank you for asking, I don't really know if want to talk about that thing, I have an exam tomorrow and I still haven't finished studying that shit... but yeah I think I'd talk about what's going on, even though I can't really explain how I feel or what I think... Thank you very much, anyway :)

@op what do you want? You prefer study ad talk about it tomorrow or talking now,I think that is better study for you exam and think about it tomorrow.

@donnaciclata Yeah I think I'm going to study for now. The real problem is tomorrow. I have to explain at the exam some project I did with her. We have to discuss this thing together, and I don't know what's gonna happen... I hope I can be calm and prepared as I wish to be...

@donnaciclata I hope so... She just texted me to remind we have this thing to do and she seems so cold to me... I don't even know why. I mean, I understand we haven't talked to each other for the last 2 days but she didn't even say "hello" to me in that message... I don't know why she's acting like this. I think tomorrow I'll have some hard times..

@op I hope for you,it's a complicated situation,but,you can do it.

@donnaciclata we did it, we could explain what we've done, but it's been a rough day..

@donnaciclata it's been hard, the thing we said to each other were pretty harsh and deep... we're both hurt i think

@op I don't know how to help you,I'm so apologize

@donnaciclata it's ok, don't worry. There's nothing you can do. Thanks for being there to hear me out

@donnaciclata actually you've been very helpful, thank you very much

Good, now i have a crush on you. Thanks. Anyway, I'm really sorry you're going through this, no one should... Ever thought of telling her the truth about how you feel?

Ahahah, you made me smile by saying you have a crush. It really did, no offence. Yeah I thought about telling her everything, but I can't. I love her so much and I care for her happiness that I'd rather suffer this myself than making her sad or cry. I already did once and I swore I'd never do that again. I want to protect her, even from myself...

@op its not fair tho, you shouldn't be suffering because of her

@LLawliet98 it is fair. I just talked to her, and I've realized the monster I've been in these last few days... She got drunk pretty hard,same as me, at a party we were, I found out the next day, and I didn't ask if she was fine. I feel so bad right now... I just want to make something for her. I've been so delusional. I feel so bad and so stupid.

@op no honey, no. You both were at the same party but you didnt know it and sho got mad because of what? Anyway it dont matter you need to grow a pair and move on, unless she likes you as well.

@LLawliet98 I am responsable for my actions. I didn't ask her anything, and that was the mistake. I think I acted like an asshole, twice. I apologized and now we're back where we were before all of this. I don't want to move on. I don't really know what i feel for her, but the thing I know is that I want her to be part of my life, somehow.

@LLawliet98 Today, to get her forgiveness and show her how much I care for her I did something I'd never have done for anyone else. I went to her house and waited her. Just for saying "sorry", a true one. One she would believe. I waited her for 3 hours before her door. When she saw me she was shocked. We hugged for so long and now I finally am fine

Have fun and get it to do with it was just thinking that you have to it and get a question about a week ago. the only thing you are not a question for the world. Have you heard from England.